Being His Girl and Not

Sometimes, I feel like we're a couple, albeit an unconventional one. I'm his girl, I've no doubts about that and he reminds me of it every so often. There are times though that even though he refuses to be called a "boyfriend" that we seem to act like it. Like today, we had an LQ because I hadn't seen him in two weeks, we were supposed to be together this afternoon and he had to cancel because his second job had demands on him. I was sooooo disappointed, I ended up crying and we had to do that whole "do you understand where I'm coming from?" dance.

Well, of course, I understand but like I said, he can't tell me not to be disappointed because I am. Besides, he needs that second job because as he says, it's going to pay him a shitload of money. He could even take a year's sabbatical if he wanted to.

Anyway, I told him about developments in the ad that I posted. He still maintains that I won't get what I want in that kind of relationship and that our relationship is perfect for me because of two reasons: One, he's not a jealous guy so he allows me to fuck other guys; and, two, he doesn't fuck any other girls because he's quite happy to hear my stories which also works for me because I will not tolerate him being with other girls.

I told him that although that's one of the things I want, there are other things that I want such as love, marriage and being with a man who loves me. If my husband won't allow me to play around, I could give up playing around since I'm getting so much more in return.

Well, we tossed this idea around a bit and he ended up saying that if I got married, he'd email me six months after my honeymoon to see if I was happy where I was. He said that maybe we should see each other at least once a year, he'd fly over to wherever I was and we'd just fuck each other the entire weekend. I said that I would take his word for it. Ha ha. Boy am I looking forward to that. He thinks that marriage and the whole white picket fence thing will water down my sexual drive. Umm, I don't think so but we'll see, shan't we?